"No."
If the questions are -
Whether I get the scholarship.
Whether I feel regretful after spending much time and energy contacting through 104 emails.
Whether I will punish myself and think if it's because I am not good enough.
I seldom cry. I can't even recall when the last time I cried was. But I admit when I checked the school website this afternoon and found out that my name wasn't on it, I could feel some warm liquid was trying really hard to blur my eyes.
I totally understood those words my friends tried to enlighten and comfort me. I still felt a little bit depressed. But I think I have a right to feel depressed and I know it will not be long and I will not be hysterical.
After I knew the outcome, I just can't stop humming a song - "Fix You" by Coldplay.
and "Yes."
If the question is whether I am OK or not. Because Coldplay is trying to fix me now.
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Now playing: Fix You - Coldplay
via FoxyTunes
If the questions are -
Whether I get the scholarship.
Whether I feel regretful after spending much time and energy contacting through 104 emails.
Whether I will punish myself and think if it's because I am not good enough.
I seldom cry. I can't even recall when the last time I cried was. But I admit when I checked the school website this afternoon and found out that my name wasn't on it, I could feel some warm liquid was trying really hard to blur my eyes.
I totally understood those words my friends tried to enlighten and comfort me. I still felt a little bit depressed. But I think I have a right to feel depressed and I know it will not be long and I will not be hysterical.
After I knew the outcome, I just can't stop humming a song - "Fix You" by Coldplay.
and "Yes."
If the question is whether I am OK or not. Because Coldplay is trying to fix me now.
----------------
Now playing: Fix You - Coldplay
via FoxyTunes
1 comment:
Awww - I know how you feel. It sounds like my experience trying to get freelance journalism work. I dare not count how many emails I sent, just to receive so many 'nos' and, even worse, no replies at all!
It is OK to be upset and disappointed. You tried your best. Maybe next time fate will smile on you.
PS - even when things are not going according to plan, you still write very well in English!
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